Today is Monday and I have no single plan for the day, yep, I have all the time in the world for the day. Right now, I’m in the hotel’s patio, drinking one good cup of joe, eavesdropping on a group of housekeepers from my behind. It’s a sunny day, and yet again, my feet itch for some summer getaway but I have no one to go with, all my friends are busy working, and most unfortunately, i dont have a boyfriend to nag to go with me. Hahahaha. So yep, I’m here spending the day with myself.

Up lately, I’ve been way too busy at work, no time for a nightlife, no time to go somewhere, no time for a workout, no time to tweet, no time to get pampered, and my 2 days off are usually spent at home – pigging out. How exciting my life can be, right? However, i love my job so much, the pay is good, the duties are fine, the people, too. I’ve been in this bank just this Feb and the changes in my life is quite big. I met new friends, but I lost one of them last week, made an enemy I dont even know, met my perfect-kind-of-guy, met an almost-lover, been gone to beautiful places, and here’s a bullet post to tell you more about.

* The new friends: I spent the first two weeks of my training in Cebu and I met 16 new friends, who were new hires as well, 9 boys 8 girls, each of us came from different cities in the country and it was so nice meeting them. Our first 2 days off there was spent in Malapascua Island in Cebu and it was soooo good, and that’s the highlight of my cebu-experience. Moving on, after that 2 weeks, I was assigned in Tacloban, Leyte for the on-the-job training, there I met new friends again. All of the bank employees there were too accomodating and sweet that I easily got attached with – Meyrick, Jolette, Chinchin, Maricel, Jerome, Noel and Louise. After one month in Tacloban, I was finally sent home and was assigned in Pampanga, which is just an hour away from home, but since we are provided with hotel accomodation, I only go home during weekends. My first week here is quite rough, people here are not as approachable like those in Tacloban, however, I made my charms work and I made friends :p

The ex friend: I’m not going to drop a name for this one. Truth is, I never want to lose this friend, we had such great combination of humor, we have the same interests and all. The friendship really clicked. But then the friendship is going way beyond I expected, going beyond “friendship” and it’s not good, apparently no chance to make it happen. So yep, last week we decided to just end it since it’s so much better that way.

The enemy: this one is connected with the ex friend, lol. One Sunday night I received a text from this crazy woman asking me some shitty question about my exfriend and too bad I was too busy to give a fuck. The next morning, a friend texted me asking what the hell is going on between me and the “exfriend”. I startled and wondered why she’d asked me that. The same day, another friend texted me again about that, so I then asked why. Guess what, this crazyscarycreepy woman just texted all my friends saying some nasty things about me and that I should keep off her ex lover (who is the exfriend, lol)

My perfect-kind-of-guy: Eeeek. Hahaha. This man is quite impossible. He’s not that so handsome but he’s cute, he’s smart and got a good humor. I like how he talks to people, i like how he’s into sports, and how he enjoy the littlest things in life. He taught me things about life and somehow it did change my point of views. I almost fall in love with this guy when I met the almost-lover.

The Almost Lover: I met this guy in the same place where I met my perfect-kind-of-guy. It was a Monday night when he asked me out to grab some coffee. It was one fine night. We talked for hours and enjoyed a few laughs. We have so much things in common and I liked him since that night. But then we had to part ways. After a month of just texting and calling, a common friend suddenly came along and told me about him and his (untold) long time girlfriend, told me about how manipulating this guy can be and whatnot. I was a little hurt. Just a littleeeee.

So, that’s all it, the new people in my life that are now part of the new chapter of my story, people that somehow changed my life in some ways. I’m happy with the changes though, I’m happy with this job and I’m keeping this one for sure :)

Today is quite a day. I’ve been busy. By “busy” I did mean something else, something I am not proud of doing, and believe me I’ve been cursing myself the whole day for that. Have you ever seen yourself in the mirror and it felt like every bit and cell of your body hates you that you just cursed yourself outloud? Crazy it may sound but I just did that awhile ago.

For 6 whole years I’ve been wanting a normal life but I never had it. It always have to be complicated. I have opened a few doors already and all of them lead me to mistakes and tears. I know, i know, there’s no one else to blame but me and the choices I made. I am so tired. I dont know how else I’m going to convince myself to change. God, I really am so tired.

A few years back, I love writing so much that I speak flowers and write magic. I miss that zingy silly vocabulary, the use of witty metaphors and some catchy titles. I used to writes poems and songs as well. I don’t know what happened, I lost it. No more creative juices, no more loud rambling mind. I’ve been meaning to write about my sentiments about the decisions I’ve been making, thoughts about life, things about love, but I’ve gone through drafts and queues, I just really can’t finish anything because I couldn’t clearly put my thoughts into good words.

I miss the good old days of blogging.

Ohai! :) Don’t really know what to blog about but it just that I feel so bad not writing anything anymore. So here’s what’s up – I got accepted at City Savings Bank as a Loan Specialist and my training would be on February 5 @ Cebu City – yeah, a plain away from here, but I’m way too excited because that’s gonna be the first time I’m going that far away from home :P I don’t have any idea how it’s gonna be but I promise to do my best to keep this job this time, cos you know, my first job went a little rough, so yeahhh. And the best thing about this job is that I get to work near home (after the training), it’s a high paying career, offered me good benefits and I have 2 rest days (Sun and Mon), and the working hours are the best, too. I actually prayed hard for this job, so hard that I really felt Him in my heart. I told God this is the job that I want, that I will wholeheartedly love aaaaaand He gave it to me the next day :) God is truly the greatest!

Truth is, I got accepted to two great companies as well, one is for a supervisory position and the other is for the branch service associate position and I had to turn them down both because I really really love to work in a bank, and I really hope I won’t regret my decisions.

It’s really so true you won’t be happy to work on a field you don’t belong to. My first job was in a mall – I was a Gift Registry Assistant, which is under customer service, and all the time I spent there I was actually thinking of my resignation. lol. So after 5 months, I resigned. It.was.a.good.decision. I met good friends there though, real good friends I will forever cherish – Anne, Ate Elvie, Ate Rachel, Kat, Mira, Ate Abby, Kah, Jen and Jheyan. I learned so many things from them, mostly are about myself, about the things I need to change about me. No single regret working there, it may sound cheesy but I believe it changed me into a better person :)

I can’t put my excitement into words. 2 more weeks til my flight and I am way too excited that I actually feel so may butterflies in my stomach! Promise to blog about my training =)

Have you watched the movie “2012″? Way back 2009, I saw its first released trailer on Youtube, I was like woah, that’s a must-watch movie. So together with my 2 best friends, we watched the movie on its first day in the cinema. It was a nail-biting, heart-pounding movie. I felt doomed after watching it. It’s funny because when we got out of the mall, the three of us felt the same dooming feeling, it’s like the cars passing by will just suddenly eaten by the ground, giant tidal waves of water will come down us, and whatever horrible thing you could ever imagine. And guess what, I’ve been keeping that fear til today. Well, who knew what could happen these days, right? I’m having so much “what-ifs” questions right now. Hehe!

SO, what if the world is really ending? Have you listed your to-dos on your last day? Oh, I suddenly remembered the movie “Seeking A Friend for the End of the World”. That’s a movie of Steve Carell and Keira Knightley, it was a good funny movie. So yes, where were we…your to-do list! Well I haven’t started listing mine yet, but here’s some ideas.

1. Make peace with anyone I had fight with, anyone I hated, anyone who I know/think hated/still hates me. Especially to my parents who I always contradict, to my brother who I always ignore and snub, to my sister who I had a thousand fights with, to my neighbor who is forever annoying, and maybe to my ex-boyfriends as well (lol).

2. Spend a good time with my loved ones. Maybe have picnic in some good place like in Tagaytay or Baguio, or maybe rent a resort and go swimming.

3. Do something crazy for the last time. Like kissing someone out of my league? Uhh, maybe a rich kid from the most expensive school in the country? lol. OR maybe do something I fear the most – Bungee Jumping, sky diving, ride a roller coaster, eat worms and any other disgusting food.

4. Bucketlist! Get a tattoo, ride a plain, sing my lungs out in public, surf-board, scooba-dive, mountain-trek, drive a car, do zipline, eat french fries, bacon, beef steak, bulk up and pig out.

5. Help people in need. Do and give whatever I can, maybe donate blood or my extra kidney? (Though prolonging life wouldn’t matter that much anymore, LOL!)

I guess that’s all for now. Ugh. Now I’m sorta wishing for the world to end so I can accomplish all these, LOL just kidding.